So it's over.

You know, it doesn't even bother me. Tomorrow is my last day at work, but tbh I don't care. Wasn't I lucky enough? Never mind.

I am going to the gym on Monday, after 2 weeks of illness, I am starting my diet. This time I will work hard on it, push my self and just do it. Because every time I ask my self what is really stopping me from it, the answer is laziness and chocolate. I guess those thing doesn't have that much power to have any influence on my life. So this time, I will do, alone, I will fight and win.

Another day; the same story

What I tend to do a lot is day dreaming. But I guess it's even more than that. I have a totally different reality in my head, and that for me it's more real than anything around.

We I am travelling in the tube, thinking about other made up story tears are coming down my face. I ain't going to lie, its scary. I'm lost, I didn't get what I planned, I'm not where i believe i should be now, and my dream world is the best actual no existent thing in my life.

Am I crazy?

So moving out of the town I lived seem at bit crazy due to the fact I don't really have plenty of money in my savings.. But what came up to my head today is just freaking me out. 

Well I thought what if for one year I will travel, 3 months for each country, four countries in the year. Add to that, I will not live for the money I got, I will have to get a job and live from the money earned... Less standard. The idea is spinning around my head, but it feels like this is the thing that I want to do and experience. 

That would be the most ever crazy thing in my whole life, but if I want to experience the world, and feel like I'm living not only existing - that would be something to do.

Will make a little research tonight, and maybe I will start planning.